“Before vs. After” – My Personal Language Learning Victories

A beautiful day in Paris. I sit in a brasserie très chaleureux and order une assiette de charcuterie from the waiter, compliment the charming atmosphere and appearance of the place and throw in a small-talkey comment about the weather. They politely ask me something about my stay and if I like it here, I assure I do and ask for tips for something interesting to see in the neighbourhood. Everything in French, bien sûr.

That’s the dream. I don’t know any statistics, but I would guess it is the typical dream of  an average language learner: being able to travel and speak the language. The great moment of language success we aim for may be successfully making an order in a restaurant, or managing to hold up a 15 minute conversation with a native speaker, or even surviving the whole trip speaking the target language only.

At least I admit I have always been a travelling-oriented language learner (besides just being passionate about the languages). In upper secondary school, I was learning French and German, and had really high expectations about testing my skills in practice on an after-graduation interrail trip I was planning with a friend.

But language learning is a long process, and personally, I really don’t travel that often (wish I could, though). So when I do get to travel somewhere a target language of mine is spoken, I put a lot of expectations on the trip and on the upcoming language-speaking glory. Then I get disappointed, if I miss any chances to speak or if it just doesn’t go as smoothly as I’d imagined. On the interrail trip, after three years of studying French, I didn’t even manage to buy stamps at a post office without switching to English.

That was, of course, many years ago. I like to think I have matured as a language learner. I now realise I need other goals and milestones, too, and that language learning success comes in many forms. It is important for motivation to find moments when I can look back and say: “I’ve learned a lot. I’m better at this than before.”

But in everyday language learning, the moments of success are hard to catch, because the progress is often so subtle. For example, with my Russian tandem practice, it took three months before I could even notice I am getting better. And still I sometimes feel like I’m getting nowhere and I’m getting there too slowly. That is when I might start losing motivation if I wasn’t able to tell myself I can do it.

I’ve already learned a few languages, and they say you get more confident as a learner with each new language. The thing is, until last year, I’d basically only learned languages in school and at uni, and I hadn’t really thought that much about how I know if I’ve made progress. The courses I passed and the grades I got were my metrics for that. I was quite confident as a language learner, but after starting to learn on my own, I have struggled a little with being unable to measure my progress.

My personal language learning victories

I’ve been here before. “Here” is at the beginning of trying something new in a language, and finding it really difficult, but not impossible.

A while ago I had an experience, that made me think of how many personal victories I can actually find in my history of language learning.

This happened over a month ago, when I was sick for a few days and got really bored and totally ran out of stuff to do. Then I got the idea to try listening to Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s stone in Russian, just to see how it would feel. (In case you didn’t read this post, I’ve previously listened to Harry Potter audiobooks in French). I didn’t expect to understand enough to be able to actually keep listening and enjoy it. I really didn’t consider my Russian to be on a level where I could listen to an audiobook, even a familiar one.

But when I started to listen, I instantly got a funny feeling. Like I’ve been here before.

“Here” is at the beginning of trying something new in a language, and finding it really difficult, but not impossible.

It felt exactly the same as when I first started to listen to the French version: At first, I could only pick a word here, another there, but could still follow the story. And I was only able to listen for a few minutes before getting overwhelmed and tired.

It was of course great that, unlike I had expected. I was able to listen and pick a few words here and there and follow the story. But what was really brilliant, was that with French, it only took me a couple of months that my ability to listen had improved what felt like ten-fold, so I got the feeling I’m not that far from my goals with Russian, either.

Inspired by this, I wanted to make a list of things that prove me I’ve made progress and improved in other languages before. So in the future, if I ever lose courage, feeling like I’ll never get anywhere, I can look at the list and see, that I’ve been there before and I’ve gotten far. It might also help me recognise new milestones I’ve reached.

This is my list of reference points of where I was before and where I am now:

  1. BEFORE: I can recall when I was around 16, and stayed in England with my aunt’s family for month in the summer and I really struggled to get a whole sentence of English out of my mouth trying to talk to my British uncle, even though in theory I was supposed to know a lot already. AFTER: I’ve spoken English quite confidently for at least seven years.
  2. BEFORE: I also remember the first times I tried reading a novel in English. It was so slow, I couldn’t concentrate, I had to stop and check words in a vocabulary frustratingly often. And I got tired after a few pages. AFTER: Now I read scientific articles for my thesis and wouldn’t think twice about should I read a book in its original English version or not.
  3. BEFORE: In 2009 I was on a week-long language scholarship trip in Sweden, and we went to the movies to see “Män som hatar kvinnor”. I felt like I didn’t understand a word. AFTER: Last year I watched a couple of Swedish films without subtitles, and struggled a bit, but not too much.
  4. BEFORE: Two years ago at my summer job I tried speaking French with a Brazilian guy who’d studied in France, but the conversation practically stopped before it started. And a year ago in Sweden I participated some language cafes to try and speak French, and I was able to say something, but probably sounded like a two-year-old. AFTER: this month, I was able to explain the topic of my Master’s thesis in French (it is rather complicated).
  5. BEFORE: In October I was in St. Petersburg in October, and I actually didn’t even dare to properly try speaking, unless you count reading out loud the Russian name of the food I ordered at a restaurant. AFTER? I’m not sure yet how much my speaking has improved during our tandem practice, but at least I most certainly do dare to open my mouth and try to say something!

Quite an amazing feeling, to realise all this. May the list get longer as I keep going!

Before and after… but after what?

Besides reminding me about the fact that I have succeeded before and I can do it again, there is another important purpose for the list above.

You know those “Before vs. After” pictures of people who lost half of their weight in no time with a super diet or training program? This Before and After list, I assure you, is not like that. What happened between Before and After here, was not a magical intense language course or program I paid a lot of money for. None of these happened overnight.

How did I make it? At least for numbers 1 and 2, it took years of practice and being forced to use English in my studies and immersing in it in my free time via films and music etc. For number 4, it took a lot of defrosting of what I’d learned in school, with a 1000 Goldlisted words, maybe 200 lessons (and reviewing them continuously) on Babbel and at least 60 hours of audiobooks.

So the list should remind me of not only where I’ve gotten so far, but also what it takes to get there: hard work, time, patience and persistence.

What is on your list? How do you know you’ve made progress? I recommend giving that some thought! Even if you are learning your first foreign language, pay attention to the small things that tell you you are moving forward. Start building your list of language victories. It will get longer and longer!


14 thoughts on ““Before vs. After” – My Personal Language Learning Victories

  1. At the moment I’m making a little progress video, talking about what I’ve been doing and how I feel about speaking, reading, writing and listening in Italian. How do I know my Italian is progressing? Being able to have short conversations with clear Italian speakers without asking them to repeat. Being able to hear and see spoken Italian words in my head (but still not being able to piece them together to make meaning as quick as I need to). It’s the little victories. Good on you!

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  2. Oh my gosh, yes. Progress, ugh! There’s a really good short post on this: Progress is Invisible, Until It Isn’t (http://fluentlanguage.co.uk/blog/guest-post-progress-is-invisible-until-it-isnt)

    Sometimes I feel like I’m still horrible at my languages because there’s always soooo much more to still learn and improve on. It’s only when I look back at how much I sucked *before* that I can see the progress. Here are two examples:

    Russian circa 2004: I failed Beginning Russian and had to repeat it. My boyfriend at the time was like, “Haha, you actually think YOU can learn Russian? Yeah, right?!”
    Russian circa 2016: An real agency hired me to translate real stuff for real money. Woah! I’m actually at the coffee shop right now, taking a break from translating.

    Chinese 2016: Absolute gibberish.
    Chinese 2017: When I hear Chinese in a movie, I can pick out one or two words here and there. Literally, one or two, but that’s a billion times better than zero.

    You should be super proud- you’ve accomplished so much, Tiia! Keep it up!

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    1. Hey! YES – perhaps that is exactly what I was trying to say with this post: sometimes you need to look back on how much you sucked before, to realise you’re getting better 😀 And also, that we should remember when doing that, that the huge leaps, like yours in Russian, are not actually huge leaps but a reeeally long way of small steps. Thank you for sharing your own experiences! You should be proud, too!


  3. I love this! I have such a hard time to give myself credit for what I’ve learnt. With some languages, progress seems so small and so slow that I don’t see it. I like to have goals like the ones you talked about. For Swedish, my goal was to get published in a small magazine. For Korean, which I’m learning now, my next goal would be to be able to watch a series without subtitles (even if I don’t understand everything). I’m also preparing for my first Korean speech contest. If I dare to participate, I’ll have to talk during 3 minutes in front of an audience. These goals make language learning fun.

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    1. Giving ourselves credit is really a hard one! Another skill, I think, that we should practice as language learners, because it is so important for motivation. 🙂
      Your goals are awesome! I especially like the Korean speech contest thing. It’s simple and fun, but still challenging enough, even a bit scary, to make you really feel like a winner when (WHEN, not if!) you reach it!

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  4. This is such a good reflection and a truly inspiring post. Recently I was thinking that I never really document my progress but I should start doing so. Maybe small videos on Instagram like the ones you make, I think they’re great and they really give you a feel about your improvements. I might follow your lead and take some time to write down my before and after, it’s good to celebrate ourselves sometimes, isn’t it? We should remind each other from time to time how good we are! 🙂

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    1. Thank you Elena! Making the videos is really useful – I sometimes watch my earlier videos and really see the progress – but it’s fun too (once you get past the initial feeling of weirdness) – so totally recommend it.
      And definitely, go ahead and make your own list of before and after! We certainly should celebrate those victories. I’d love to read about yours if you share them on your blog! 🙂


    1. That’s a good tip! I’ve been going through my Russian notes to review them and it’s rewarding when there’s some stuff I was learning back then and now I feel like I know it by now. I’m sure it would be even more fun if I had the date on them!

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